Monday, October 26, 2009

Subduing the Saboteur ~ REBOUND!

It’s been way over a month since I blogged. It's all been an exhausting blur. During this time we moved my Mother to an independent living apartment, my sister bought my parents’ house, and moved in and I moved to her house until the spring. Then I get to turn around and do it all over again! This time, back to the Southwest, unless something really spectacular shows itself in Indy.

Since all this started, I have worked hard to create endeavors that will sustain me here until I decide to move back to the Southwest. While some really cool opportunities have shown up, most have quickly stopped their forward motion. I have had a huge challenge getting a foothold here to propel me and my endeavors forward.

After moving into my sister’s house a week ago, I went into somewhat of a funk, not really clear on what was going. Only angry and frustrated that things still weren’t working. I needed to generate income and everything had come to a screeching, grinding halt!

I really have to laugh at all this now. I have this Inner Saboteur that is pretty powerful and sneaky. It looks and acts (and probably smells) like the Golgotha (shit monster) in the movie Dogma. It’s also really, really good at masquerading as other, more helpful, parts of me. And sometimes, I just am not that good at discernment.

After some soul searching, several droppers of St. John’s Wort, toning in the shower, meditation, hot baths, dancing around the house with my dog, and the other usual remedies I use, I realized a couple of things.

Back in late 2008, not too long after I arrived in Indy and before my Father became ill, I was going like gangbusters to start a number of things. But nothing was working. One of my friends in Colorado, a very gifted intuitive, told me I needed to pull my energy from Colorado to Indiana and GROUND HERE – no matter how hard that was to do. No matter how much I disliked it here, no matter how unhappy I was with my situation. Well, I didn’t… I was really upset at my situation. I listened to my Inner Saboteur and decided that I really didn’t need to do this.

The other thing I realized was that, as I was thinking about starting my business here, I refused to actually do it! I didn’t want to be HERE, so why would I want to start a business HERE? Talk about shooting myself in the foot!

Like I said, I really have to laugh at all of this – well, sort of. So now? I survey the damage. I get a mindset change, go back to the drawing board, redo my I AM’s, get back on track.

See you on the other side of this – better than ever!

Monday, September 7, 2009

Pieces of the Puzzle

Hello all!

T-minus 13 days to freedom and counting.... I say this bittersweetly. My Mother, bless her, is moving into her Independent Living apartment on September 19 in the same community where my father will be living in the brand new Memory Care Unit as of September 14 (currently he is in their Health Center receiving lots of PT, having passed the assessment to live in the new Unit). The Unit is government funded - a brand new concept for Alzheimer's sufferers, which my father is one. He is at the stage where he realizes his memory isn't sharp. For someone who has been brilliant, this is hard. At times, he has expressed his desire not to continue living. It has been horribly challenging for my Mother especially as she learns to be separated from my Father - they have never lived apart for 58 years. And she will be living alone for the first time in her life as well. For the last month or so I have been Mommy Coach, bolstering her self-esteem and confidence, showing her how to do things, reassuring her that her memory issues are due to stress and not dementia. At my last visit with my Father, I realized I needed to be Daddy Coach, too, as he is feeling as lost as my Mother. He's always been the rock of Faith. Not so much now, but definitely with a wit that will bring you to your knees, thank God/dess. And so it goes....

My Mother will move into her very own new place exactly 2 days shy of my 1 year anniversary here. Let's face it, it has been very challenging for my brother and sister and me for the last 12 months, as we've coordinated all the Dr's appointments, surgeries, tests, assessments, appointments, etc. As of September 19, 2009, I have my first night of solitude in this house. I will be here gloriously alone for awhile, then my sister, Abby, and I swap houses in October, she will buy this house, and I will rent her house, still gloriously alone, until she puts it on the market in the Spring.

Most of the time that I've been here in Indianapolis I have felt quite "invisible." It's been like trying to ground in dirty molasses - always moving, nothing solid, very strange feeling! This has resulted in me posting lots of ads for my various services. And then lots of resumes posted when the ads didn't produce any results. And my resumes brought no offers of clients or jobs either. And so the cycle has continued over this past year until recently when I realized....so what is it that I AM to do here? Whatever I DESIRE...... This last week I realized I was truly underground, truly the "troll under stairs" as I have joked since I arrived at my parents'. Be careful what you joke about, because it could be a reflection of what you think you ARE! Regardless of how squeaky clean I kept the energy in my living space, I always felt like there was a dark cloud or membrane over me that was preventing my efforts from being fruitful. Hah! That dark cloud was me preventing ME from being noticed. Why? Because I didn't want to be here, I didn't want to start a new business here because I wanted to be elsewhere. Among other things.......!

In meditation on Wednesday I connected with my Angelic self, which I hadn't done in years. I forgot how powerful I am. I forgot what I am capable of doing, what I have to offer, all of the things I am good at. I let Fear talk me back into the small "me", instead of remaining centered and focused on all of those individuals I am here to Serve (thank you, Mike Litman!). And I had forgotten to dream - BIG!!! My Angelic Self is about 25 feet tall. In girth she takes up my whole living room, from TV to stairway. Stretching herself to her full height, in no time she had poked a whole in that dark cloud, uttered a huge "I AM," and scattered the rest of it. It was then that I saw she/I had the head of an eagle/phoenix. It/I was IMMENSE and GLORIOUS! Yeah!

Eagles have been a recurring theme for me since 2005, when I came face to face with three golden eagles swooping down toward my car while driving home from the grocery on a back road in northern Colorado. Since then Sacagawea BirdWoman, presented herself fully at a woman's retreat in 2007. A client presented me with a carved stone eagle as I prepared to leave Colorado in 2008. I ceremoniously placed it in one of my trusty Honda's cup holders the day I left Boulder and it rests there still, always guiding me. When I crossed the Indiana State line September 21, 2008, I saw 10 eagles in the first 30 minutes! Quite the homecoming - I was in tears! And recently a dear and very gifted friend created a beautiful Native American rattle for me - on one side is hand-painted an eagle and inside are 24 pieces of carnelian. Eagle is very powerful medicine - strength, ferocity, vision, foresight. Courage! Soaring to great heights when we finally find the courage to do so! How many more reminders do I need??

Ah! Courage! Finally, that final sticking point! I have always thought myself quite courageous. Until I realized that I had been skirting the whole issue of courage for quite a few years now. Until I connected with the subconsious, subversive part of me who has never wanted to be "seen," who believed that they didn't deserve to BE here living, let alone seen. The one who had chosen or allowed the basement to be her dwelling place for the past 10 years. The "troll under the stairs." The one I have joked about. Well, guess what? I just let myself out of the basement. I just let my courage out! I did! That is what my eagle angel self is all about. I have broken through my cloud ceiling (thank goodness it's not glass!)

And since then, I have been on roll. I have accomplished some really cool things this last week! I have organized a Wellness and Healing fair at a great venue for October. Three Sound Healing concerts on my docket for September and October in Indianapolis and Kokomo, plus a Sound Presentation and Sound workshop in October. And the first leg of my US tour is now in place with several concerts scheduled in Austin and surrounding around New Year's 2010 with Jodi Roberts (http://www.sacredinspiration.com/), the very first person I collaborated with on my very first concert in Boulder in 2006. I was also honored to be asked to be part of a cutting edge conversation on Sound Healing in the Alignment Factor class I'm taking by Harrison Klein.

So today, I overhauled my website, dusted off the cobwebs, swept in the corners, added PayPal buttons to several of the pages for the ease of my clients, cleaned up the metatags, and sent my website off via Blastomatic.com to 12 million (yes MILLION!) advertising spots. I can't wait to see the results - all the people I can assist (and the spam.... NONE! Prepaving!). I joined Twitter, had conversations with people I didn't even know, including offering an explanation of Sound Healing to an elderly couple in the elevator at the community where my parents will live.

Pieces of the puzzle floating gently down to fit nicely in the scheme of things. Nine and one-half months to lift-off..... Guess where I will be by then!?

May you be peaceful this week! Om Shanti!

Mindy

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Getting GLOBAL - Week 2

Well, I was so surprised to receive several unsolicited emails and comments about my blog, from people I didn't even know! I don't even think Julie (from Julie and Julia) did as well the first week :-) Thank you so much for the encouragement! It was so unexpected, but so very much appreciated.

Wow, magic was really happening this past week ~ it was extraordinary! I'm studying with two of the top life and wealth coaches ~ Harrison Klein of The Masters Gathering and the Alignment Factor; and Bob Proctor, whom just about everyone knows. The further I integrate their teachings, the deeper I go into the places within me that up to now wouldn't support my living large. Earlier this week, I was driving home, came to a stoplight and just started bawling. I had to pull off to the side of the road. I was feeling such intense gratitude for where I was and for the opportunities that were opening up to me - that I was CREATING! I found that I had reached a level of such certainty that I had never ever experienced in my life before. I was Certain that I AM creating anything I desire, that it is truly already here. My desire to travel and teach is here! I also felt, for the first time in my life, a deep sense of safety, a letting go of 51 years of fear, low grade depression, and the constant "vigilence" I have felt since returning to Indianapolis and living with my parents. The message I got, and I posted it on my Facebook page that day, is "DREAM BIG! Your dream is already realized! Write it! Imagine it! Have reasons for it - the more reasons the juicier it is! Visit it OFTEN! The Universe wants you to have it...and you DESERVE it!"

I haven't quite reached the level of self-confidence I feel I need to call up nationally or globally-known sound healers and say "Hey, you've never heard of me but I'd love to collaborate with you." But I'm getting close. This past week, after several synchronistic emails from individuals I know around the US, I began laying the groundwork for what I fondly call my "US tour," traveling and teaching Sound workshops, offering meditations and collaborations with other sound healers. I have three events now tentatively scheduled in key areas for after the New Year. I contacted several local printers requesting quotes for printing costs of my card deck. My Sacred Voice process got the attention of a well-known someone who is integrating it into what they teach. I looked into studio space rental at a local recording studio for the CD I am starting working on. And several potentially lucrative income streams came forward that will easily take care of my needs on a part-time basis. Freeing up the rest of my time for creation of my goals! All of the particulars I have been asking for. I just needed to know that I CAN HAVE THIS before the doors could open.

And not to forget, I spent an hour or so online looking at real estate in Sedona, AZ and dreaming about my multimillion dollar house that I am acquiring, now, even as I type this...

Now this may all sound a bit lame to some. But every little bit of it is laying the groundwork for what I desire to bring in - each little step is sending a BIG and POWERFUL message to the Universe that I mean business. I AM acting differently, I AM shifting my thoughts from "I can't do that..." to "I AM DOING THIS!" This counts BIG! As Harrison Klein says, the five steps to manifestation are "be, think speak, act, receive." And that is exactly what I AM doing. Get the process down, watch your thoughts, KNOW WITH CERTAINTY, and baddabing, baddabang, baddaboom, you are there!

And let's certainly not forget another key ingredient, prepaving - a 'la Elizabeth Fayt. Every morning, before I even get out of bed, I spend five-ten minutes thinking about everything in my life, and how grateful I AM for every single thing. John di Martini talked about this in The Secret and I have to admit for a long time I thought it was a bit hokey. Not anymore. Gratitude is the wellspring of everything good and magical in our lives. And after feeling gratitude for everything I have, then I prepave my day. Prepaving is essentially stating how my day is going to unfold. One of my favorite things to say, which Elizabeth talks about in her book, is, "Something wonderful is happening today," because that opens things up to the Universe to bring to me the next wonderful thing I desire. I have also prepaved for my Dad, whom we are ready to move into a Memory Care Unit for Alzheimer's patients. A specific prepaving one day was that "he is passing his assessment and is accepted into the Memory Care Unit," and that "he has found a way to contribute again to society." Not long after, while at my sister's office, we received the call that he had been accepted, and they are looking into the possibility that he can offer lectures on medieval history, his passion for the last 10 years!

I'm involved in a couple of groups of people andwe're very busy creating various endeavors, and in one of the groups we now take 5-10 minutes at the end of every conference call and connect up, go into meditation and create our prepavings for the next week. I AM a true believer in the power of prepaving. It works!

All in all, it was a most excellent week and I AM so excited about what tomorrow is bringing, because I AM certain it is even more wonderful and profound than today. I have my list of goals (the list topping over 200 goals, with many more to come) and I'm all set. Let's rock n' roll & I'll see you all in another week with more magical happenings.

Om Shanti!


Mindy

Sunday, August 23, 2009

What Does It Take to Create A Successful Global Spiritual Business?

What does it take to create a successful spiritual business in Indianapolis? Better yet, what does it take to create a successful global spiritual entity ~~ from nothing?

Seeing how I've been trying to do just that since September, 2008, when I uprooted myself from my growing soon-to-be-thriving alternative healing practice in Boulder and moved back to Indianapolis, I can tell you exactly how NOT to do it. Lists of things NOT to do.

Spirituality is BIG right now. Starting with The Secret in 2006, and now more spiritual life coaches that you can blink at. Bob Proctor, John Assaraf, John di Martini, Harrison Klein, Jennifer Hough - these are the ones front and center now. I admire and study with a couple of them myself and their coaching has been so helpful for me.

And as I've been looking at the spiritual environment in Indianapolis trying to see where my work might fit, the spiritual marketplace and some of the "successful" local healers feel largely "competitive." This is from personal observation and personal experience, with conversational confirmation from other local healers whom I know and trust. And a shock to experience this first-hand, having come from Boulder, the cooperative capital of the US.

Competition is not a place within me that I will go to. Never have and never will.

Wallace Wattles, author of "The Science of Getting Rich" wrote the following about competition,

"You must get rid of the thought of competition. You are to create, not to compete for what is already created. You do not have to take anything away from anyone. You do not have to drive sharp bargains...You are to become a creator, not a competitor; you are going to get what you want, but in such a way that when you get it every other man will have more than he has now."

And as a Sound Therapist and performer, creator of spiritually-based events and spiritual tools, I don't have time to coach others ~ I'm too busy coaching myself and getting the help of some of these masters to help me, because to be perfectly honest, I'm feeling a bit lost in this geographic neck of the woods. Trying to ground my energy here has been like trying to ground myself in molasses.

Sometimes an individual's calling, such as mine, is so cutting edge that it's heard of by maybe only fifty or a hundred individuals worldwide at the most. Those in the know are understandably jazzed by it, because they know the potential for good that will come from it. However, taking that calling, that purpose, where there is a very small market for it locally, to a "global" level? THAT is the challenge I'm rising to now. For me it is my heart life. It is a driving force to share this and not having much opportunity to do so since being in Indianapolis has been very challenging. My focus has been on other things up until recently, and the venues and opportunities to share what I do have been minimal. Thinking about it though, I do have a global enterprise in that I have connected with others around the world through my work. But it isn't how I envision it - it isn't yet "there."

I was recently invited to host a web talk radio program on Sound Healing on VoiceAmerica talk radio. That jazzed me so much! I thought "FINALLY! Here is a way to get the word out." I already have the guests all lined up. What I need now are advertisers and sponsors. The goal is to have the first year paid for and have THE most popular show on this site. If it does well, it could lead to streaming webcasts from Sacred Sites around the world. What better way to educate the world about Sound and everything that it does - from relaxation to shattering cancer cells? But there have been a lot of explicit"no's" from people and businesses I've humbly approached to back it. And I know that is part of the journey too.

I'm taking you on my creative journey as it unfolds. The challenge (a la "Julie and Julia"): By next June 30, 2010 I AM (NOW ALREADY!) living in the Southwest, most likely Sedona, and traveling GLOBALLY ~ teaching and performing, CDs, creating spectacular meditative pieces of artwork for installations and major healing centers around the world. Card deck selling globally. And more. That gives me 10 months. In the meantime, I need to put all of this in place plus create income streams to support me. And you will keep me honest in this! Check back weekly as I re-create the "new global" me!

Om Shanti!

Mindy

Friday, January 30, 2009

Using Sound to Clear Your Space

Welcome to my very first blog! I'm honored that you've joined me. I've been playing with vocal sound as a healing tool since 2003 and sharing this with others has since become my avocation. I offer a variety of vocal practices, such as private healing sessions and instruction, group meditations and benedictions, and I teach some really fun sound and energy workshops, too. I call myself a Sound and Energy Alchemist because to me, it's all about creating a new way. In this first blog, I want to share some background on vocal sound and a cool trick or two for you to try on your own.

Did you know that many researchers in the fields of science and sound consider the human voice to be the most powerful healing tool in existence? No other instrument carries its multitude of vibrations and frequencies, nor can anything come close to its healing capabilities.

- Did you know that, used properly, the human voice can destroy a human cancer cell after 14 minutes?

- A drop of Tokyo tap water exposed to a Tibetan chant changed its appearance, when viewed under an electron microscope, from a blob to a beautiful crystalline snowflake?


- Did you know that in 1967, every monk in residence at a Benedictine monastery in France became very ill when the new Abbot banned the Gregorian chant, thinking their time would be more efficiently used in silence.?A specialist was brought in to find the source of the illness. When finally the monks were allowed to resume their customary 8-hour a day chanting, they all returned to normal within a few months.

So what does all this mean?

Well, when you think about it, it makes perfect sense. We are all walking, talking symphonies of sound. The Universe was created through sound! Every single atom in our bodies vibrates with sound! It would be impossible to totally silence our world. With this in mind, what if we could bring physical and emotional selves and our physical spaces into balance with our voices?

Vocal sound healing has nothing to do with the ability to sing. If you can talk, if you can make a single sustained tone with your voice, you can use your voice in a healing way. Here's an example of what I mean by this. Have you ever been around someone who is in such a good mood that they are humming or singing to themselves? That good feeling kinda rubs off on you, doesn't it? Even if you were in a really bad mood, being around that cheerful individual will begin to shift your own space, without you doing anything or sometimes even realizing it. Clearing your space with sound is the same concept. Whether knowingly or unknowingly, that happy humming individual is fueling their vocal sound with their positive vibes. When you couple the power of your voice with positive intention, you create a third, extremely powerful, nearly unbeatable healing combination.

Following is one of my favorite ninja healing techniques that I teach in my Advanced Sound Healing for Healers workshop. I'm sharing it with you here because there is a lot of stress out in the world right now. People NEED this! This technique only takes a couple of minutes and it REALLY WORKS! I've used it to clear ookey energy on buses and in elevators, to calm angry and impatient individuals in line at grocery stores, and I just started using it at the skilled nursing facility where my father is currently staying to help calm the residents and the staff and uplift the entire energy.

Take a moment, close your eyes and go into your heart space. Connect with your beautiful heart energy and let it surround you and fill you. Take a deep breath and allow it to bathe you in its beautiful energy. Set the intention that your voice will calm and soothe those around you and clear the space of any negativity. Really feel and see it happening in your mind. Then open your eyes and make a soft hum. It can be one note, it can be lullaby-like, it need only be very simple. Keep this up for a few moments, as loud as you are comfortable or the occasion permits, continually reinforcing your good intentions. Pay attention to the energy of the space and the people around you. Watch them visibly relax. Keep this up until the desired effect is attained, then shift your intention that it remain so. This is what is meant when they say "Shift Happens"!

Here's another amazing fact - this same technique can be used on yourself to shatter blockages and trauma, AND it can be used SILENTLY. But that's a topic for another day.......

I hope you will consider joining me here again.

In the meantime, Om Shanti!

Mindy